To keep the melodrama short, the nurse called last minute might I add to advise that the D & C is 8am tuesday, they need blood work to confirm my blood type and oh yeah my insurance wont cover it all I have to pay $400... WHAT? This insurance is the worse I have ever had, I absolutely hate it, anyway while me and DH could have still gone out of town, we knew that it would have easily meant that going away AND me and him missing work for the D & C will add up to too much and WE ARE saving for the wedding and paying any credit card debts we have at once, so no need to go spend the extra money and we would have. Everytime we are saving and things "seem ok" we get an unexpected turn, my mom told me 2 days ago not to worry she would help us with a little money for the wedding. I hope she is telling the truth we need every help we can get
He is such a great guy though, he surprised me with a great dinner, and isnt concerned about the change of plans while I on the other hand am sad we couldn't get some free time away from here, away from life, away from it all. I love him so and I want to re-connect with him. EVERYTHING has been about going through the Mini IVF cycle, stimming, injections, monitoring, getting pregnant, and dealing with the loss through miscarriage all in the last few months of our lives. I want us to get back to US. I am sure many other couples can relate that once you get caught up in the IVF process it is almost like your life stops, that you talk about or all that you seem to think about. DH wants us to try to see if we could get pregnant on our own.......I said okay but in my heart I know......the odds of that happening......hhmmmmmmm anyway lets move on shall we.
On the FLIP SIDE
Do you watch my BIG FAT GYPSY WEDDING? OMG I like watching that show but oddly my reasons are for mere fascination, sadness and for laughs. I mean 14, 15, 16 year olds getting married? I suppose it is the culture and ths size dresses? WHY is usually what comes out of my mouth. Another reason i enjoy the show is to watch just how people's injustices and bias can affect a community. I told DH if I won the lotto I would move to England and build a huge ballroom so the gypsy's can get married at venue.....it is simple I would not have much of any competition because they are alienated so much. It's early in the morning and I am rambling......maybe after some breakfast, clear head, and some clearer thoughts I can write something of more substance... :-) bare with me..tough week.
